 In 2018 one of my goals was to invest in myself so I could be a clearer vessel for Spirit to channel through.
✨ One of the areas I felt I was greatly lacking or blocked was in my femininity. I knew if I could unlock this key for myself, that I would make great strides. ✨ I was at my local beloved yoga studio receiving a beautifully lead Yoga Nidra class from the magnificent Katya Lovejoy. Something told me to ask her if she knew of any tantra or women’s retreats happening in the near future. She recommended I reach out to a woman named Nadine Lee on FB and ask her. ✨ As soon as I got home, I found Nadine on FB and asked her the same question. Little did I know, Nadine was hosting a retreat in Bali within the next 4-6 weeks. Bali had been on my bucket list for the last 5+ years. ✨ It was a no-brainer! The stars were perfectly aligned. ✨ I knew this retreat was going to push me out of my comfort zone. I was ready for the challenge. I was open to receive the Goddess’ Medicine. I was nervous to go alone. I begged my best friend Hannah to join me, but she was not getting the same call I was. I knew this was something I had to do alone. ✨ I chatted with Jim about it and without hesitation he said he’d keep the house warm and take over Mommy duties while I went. He wanted to fully support me with the vision I was holding. ✨ I had no effing clue what I was getting myself into!! 😂 ✨ When I arrived in Bali I gave myself a few days in Ubud alone to explore the area. I was hosted by a wonderful family who took great care of me. The host would even jump on FaceTime calls with me when I’d call home. I was so held. ✨ A few days after solo exploring, it was time for us ladies to gather to venture to the north side is the island. Vans picked us up as we drove over the mountain and down into the jungle. ✨ We were all solo travelers. From all over the world. We came together for very different reasons, but with similar goals for attending this retreat. ✨ Greeted by Nadine and Amrita, I immediately felt safe. We settled into the beautiful eco resort right on the water. ✨ What unfolded over the next week was incredible. These sisters had an incredible way of revealing deep sides of myself that I never knew existed. They held me in my vulnerable moments and cheered me in my expression. ✨ I was pushed to the very edges of my comfort zone. I knew it was safe to explore these sides of myself. I showed up fully even when I wanted to run and hide. ✨ The sisterhood that was formed will forever be a part of me. They will always hold a special place in my heart. It’s incredible what can happen when we are fully held! ✨ In full transparency, when I got back to the states.... ummmm well.... so much more unraveled. Some of the thickest layers of my ego came crumbling down. There were moments when I’d look in the mirror and not recognize myself. I said to my partner many times after this retreat, that I don’t know who I am any more. As more and more and more layers of false distortions fell away, I was desperately trying to understand this new me, or rather the real me. ✨ Have you ever looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize the person in the reflection? It was frightening. I was grasping on the false self for dear life. ✨ This retreat was the catalyst for a massive ego death and fully stepping into my Soul’s calling. I’ve had some incredible help along the way. ✨ Nadine will be hosting a Feminine Frequency Retreat in Costa Rica in April. Myself and three other Goddesses will be supporting her and all the ladies called to attend this retreat. ✨ As if this work wasn’t powerful enough... I will be facilitating Shamanic Breathwork to take you even deeper. To help you shed your false layers. To hold YOU while you step in to your Souls calling. ✨ If you are ready to fully step in, to claim your sovereignty, to be stretched, to be held and seen, to claim and awaken the Goddess within you, I invite you to join us. Let’s jump on a call to see if this is the medicine that’s right for you. If you are scared, perfect, so was I! Link in the comments. ✨ And to my beautiful SiStars.... you are so loved. I cherish each of you. This “stepping in” process has not been cute, but so worth it. Celina, Labrini, Mila, Mez, Julie, Alicia, Anna, Alexis .
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 Rozlyn Zelinda
January 27 at 7:25 PM · Vulnerable share: In High School I found myself head over heals in love with my boyfriend. This was my first real love. The one I would do anything for. We were like Bonnie and Clyde. He protected me. I was his “ride or die” chick. I would do anything for him. At one point he was almost killed (he loved the fast life) and I found myself being his nurse. It got to a point that I was so consumed with helping him and being by his side, that my life began to fade away. It didn’t matter how much I did for him, he always wanted more of me. I loved the feeling of being wanted and found myself perplexed as to why it was never enough for him. My next relationship started out similar. This one lasted 6 years. Same thing, I was his “ride or die” chick. He loved the fast life. We would get ourselves in to all kinds of trouble. I was naïve to this way of living on the edge. He taught me the ropes and I felt so cool. So important. I would do anything and everything for him. I was working a full time job, taking care of him, the family and the household. It was never enough, he always wanted more of me. No matter how hard I tried, it just wasn’t enough. I had done so much healing work by this point and thought I was ready for another relationship years later. This time it was different! He had his shit together. He had a great job, we both made great money, he lived on the beach, he had a child so he understood the realms of parenting. He also loved to party and have a good time. He seemed to find a good balance. I loved how he lived the fast life and also had his life in order. Again I was his “ride or die” chick. He was stable and safe. His version of the “fast life” was much more mature and tame in comparison to my previous loves. We would go on adventures and travel together. Once he let his guard down, the flood gates opened. There was so much sh!t he was holding on to. It was ok, I was going to fix him. I would do anything for him. He wanted all of me. Again, I loved the feeling of being needed and wanted. Once the relationship started to go downhill, I found myself in a very dark place. I stooped down to his level. I was disgusted with myself. How in the hell did I manage to get myself into another one of these “ride or die” relationships? He was so different. He had his sh!t together. Ugh! Once this mess was finally over, I swore to myself never again! I started to see this ugly “ride or die” thing on damn replay through all my relationships. It was a tough pill to swallow. I finally realized there was something deep within me that needed to be healed. This began my long journey inward! I swore off men for a long period. CLOSED FOR BUSINESS! Not letting anyone near me. I didn’t trust myself. This lead me to working with Ancient Wisdom. I traveled the world working with Gurus, Shamans, Earth Keepers and Guides. I found many answers. I FINALLY saw why this pattern was on repeat. I also saw other subconscious programs that were on repeat that needed correcting. I feel like for the first time in my life I got a taste of freedom. The healing process finally started. You better believe your a$$ when my current partner, Jim, came into my life, I was resisting the heck out of him. Nope nope nope... no men... nope still closed for business. He knew this was my truth at the moment and didn’t push me. He gave me space and we walked beside one another as friends for a while. It wasn’t until I was in a deep meditation, I was told I needed to open my heart to him. What? Heck no!! No way!! Never going to happen. And very very very slowly, I started to open the door to my heart. Inch by inch. He didn’t force his way through, he patiently waited. He even knew there was a possibility it would never happen and still stood by me. This relationship is different. It’s finally “ROZ OR DIE”. I choose myself or the relationship dies. Phew! To support others and share this knowledge that I have gained along the way brings me soul much joy. Seeing my Soulmate Clients getting the same “ah ha” moments when we apply this Ancient Wisdom ignites me. Seeing their light bulbs go off and create new patterns and break old cycles makes my heart sing. I would love to share this wisdom with you. If you are ready to roll up your sleeves and dive deep in a Sacred Safe Container for 90 days with me, please reach out. I would love to support you on this path. Let’s jump on a call to discuss further. Link in the comments below. I know one thing for sure... healing IS possible. Freedom awaits. |
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